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Hello my friends,
There comes a time when you need to take the rule book and toss it out the window. For so many years I was convinced in order to lose over 300 lbs of weight I had to work out in the gym 2 hours a day 7 days a week. I had to eat food with no salt added. The only way I could lose a massive amount of weight is through surgery. I need to start juicing, I need to start drinking protein shakes. And it goes on, and on, and on….
As I close in on 1,000 days on this weight loss journey I have some interesting revelations.
First and foremost I am FINALLY doing something about my mental health. Mental health is one of the most overlooked aspects of people battling obesity. We seek out support from friends, family and now social media. While I agree these are great ways to garner support, I also acknowledge the importance of talking to a professional therapist to understand the triggers behind my relationship with food.
Obesity is an outward manifestation of pain. Pain can be defined in many different ways however my obesity is a combination of eating when I am emotional and lack of education. Our country has an obesity epidemic especially with our children and I am part of this statistic having grown up obese. My mother always tried to feed us nutritious food however when she was at work I ate excess food. Whether it be a pot of white rice, left over pizza, or snacks from the corner store, I used food to as an escape from boredom or the stress of everyday life.
Over the last 3 years I have started to “Crack the Code” with my obesity through education. By educating myself on the power of social media, I was able to share my story through social media sites like Facebook and YouTube as well as my local news stations in South Florida. I figured if I share my journey publicly, this would provide me with more accountability. Through my public campaign I have received help from my friends with personal training to nutrition counseling. I was able to lose 150 lbs in one year then all heck broke loose.
Towards the end of 2011 I injured myself playing football by tearing ligaments in both my knees and I suffered a neck injury exercising with heavy weights. This combination of injuries has caused me to develop an emotional block. The pinched nerve in my neck and shoulder gave me the sensation I was having a heart attach and subsequently I developed anxiety. Over the last 18 months I have paralyzed myself from pushing ahead through excuses and laziness.
When I feel guilty I have the tendency to stay under the radar and not keep up with my blog and social media. I feel this obligation to make everyone better around me however I am not addressing my own internal issues. The “Big Elephant” in the room continues to be my self-sabotaging.
After a long period of soul searching I have determined the issue. Over the years I have used stress as an excuse to fall off the band wagon. Everyday stresses in life are an excuse to act like a “victim.” I have so many awesome friends on Facebook that have achieved their weight loss goals and exercise daily however I feel like a fraud and I stay off the radar.
As of today I have come to the conclusion I need to talk to a professional to understand why I think the way I do. Talking to a therapist does not mean you are “CRAZY.” Rather it is an admission that you don’t have all the answers and it is time you got some help to tap into your subconscious to understand why you do what you do.
Why am I less committed to eating healthy? Why do I shut down when I have dizzy spell due to my pinched nerve? Why do I hide from my problems? Why am I afraid of success? These are all questions I ask myself however I don’t have the answer. However I know its time I took a stand and invested in my mental health to better understand my behaviors and apply scientific principles to modify my actions for the better.
In additional to mental health I am a strong believer in holistic medicine and over the last 2 weeks I have been seeking acupuncture treatments to address my pinched nerve. It has not fixed the problem yet but there is slight improvements. Acupuncture can take time and I am committed to making it a part of my life. I also have back issues and I believe in chiropractic care. When I went to see a neurologist he said I have a herniated disc and prescribed muscle relaxers. I know these medicines can help but they can also hurt with side-effects. I believe if you attack the root of the problem versus mask it with drugs you can achieve life long health.
So in closing I need to confess the rules have changed. I am not going to profess my commitment to the gym 5 days a week. I am not going on some radical diet. I am not going say from this point on I am kicking it up a notch. All I am saying is if I focus on getting my mind right and make practical decisions, I will lose this weight eventually.
P.S. Here is an example of what I mean. I am a big proponent of cooking your own food as part of a healthy lifestyle however it has to taste good. I was doing no salt for a long time and to be honest the food I cooked was eh…okay. Tonight I decided to cook a couple of pork tenderloins in a slow cooker which is somewhat healthy however I added some soy sauce and onion soup mix which adds some sodium but when I think of 1,000 mg of salt versus my past where I consumed almost 10,000 mg per day that sounds much more practical. If you are interested in the recipe I am preparing tonight, here is the link: http://allrecipes.com/Recipe/Amazing-Pork-Tenderloin-in-the-Slow-Cooker/Detail.aspx?evt19=1
I hope you enjoyed tonight’s post and I will do my best to keep you updated more often as I continue working on this life long issue.
Thank you for all your continued support my friends!